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Thursday, February 12, 2015

Too honest?

The day starts like any other:  I'm tired.  The kids want breakfast.  Trevor is heading out the door to work.  I insist he take the car because, really, where would I want to take two snot-nosed kids today anyways?  So I'm housebound, and it's cold out, and .. ugh.

I realize I'm in a rut.  A great big lazy "all-I-want-to-do-is-sleep-but-I-can't-because-I'm-a-Mom" rut.  This has to stop. 

The kids and I have breakfast (mine with a lot of coffee) and head down to the family room for a little Wii Fit.  I tell myself if I can force myself to care about my health for just ten minutes, it'll be a start.  I hop on the balance board and it tells me it has been almost 200 days since my last weigh-in and I have gained .. wait, how much?!  How did THAT happen?

I comment out loud that I've gained a LOT of weight since the last time I played this game and Maxwell says, "Because you're growing another baby."  It did not come out sounding like a question, but rather what he assumed would be the rest of my sentence had I continued it.

After reassuring him that, no, Mommy is not growing another baby and never will because two kids is plenty, I exercised HARD.  I found my motivation, buried deep under donuts and ice cream and laziness and frustration and just.not.caring.  I thought, this is it.  That innocent comment was exactly what I needed to get back on track. 

I shower, we eat healthy snacks, we play outside, I feel GREAT!  I feel so ALIVE!  What is wrong with me?  Why have I been spending so much time NOT exercising?  Eating unhealthy foods?  Being lazy and indifferent?

At some point after lunch, Maxwell throws a tantrum to end all tantrums and after struggling to get him to stay in time-out I suddenly find my arm wrist-deep in a bag of chocolate chips.  "How did that get there?" I ask.  And it's all downhill from there.  Rut, nice to see you again. 

Tomorrow is another day.

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